So what do you do when...?

So what do you do when your weight loss has all but completely dried up?
What do you do when calories in vs calories out just isn't working anymore?
What do you do when your body is changing but not how you thought?
What do you do when you're completely unmotivated to carry on?
What do you do when you still have more than 2 stone to go?
What do you do when you've been doing this for a year and a half and still obese?

I have all these questions going round my head, I dunno where to go from here. My weight loss has all but stopped, its very very slow. I'm getting really unmotivated, I've been at this for a year and a half and I'm still obese. I'm so tired of analysing and scrutinising every little thing I put in my mouth. Exercise has completely fallen by the wayside. I've already had a day where I just didn't care and ate what I liked, but felt terrible afterwards. My body is changing but really not like I thought it would, I'm flabby and saggy like an old lady, I dread to think what I'll be left with when I'm done. I think all of this is part of the reason why I'm not as motivated to carry on.

I knew going into this it wasn't going to be easy, I knew it was going to take a long time, I just don't know how to shake this feeling off and get back into this. I can feel my attitude changing a little bit each day, and not for the better, it's like I've stopped caring.

All I know is the decisions I make now are going to shape the next few months. I know I don't want to go back to the way I was, but this sucks. I think I'm going to have a shake up, look at some new recipes, try a few new things, and just generally try and get out of this funk.

*Disclaimer - If you were looking for a cheery, motivational weight loss post may I suggest you go here, here, or for some yummy low cal food here!*

I feel I should end this post on a positive note though so I'll post my progress so far.

SW:  269
CW: 197

Progress pic.

Never give up.

I haven't been on here for a very long time, I sort of gave up on it, on the blog not on the weight loss, there was a few reasons for this, my blog was broken and my pictures are all slowly disappearing, an also I had nothing uplifting or even remotely motivational to put on here.

I've still been trying hard with the weight loss, I put on a little bit over Christmas but that was to be expected, that weight came off relatively quickly and then nothing, nada, zilch! I was stuck at the same weight and I couldn't understand why.

After chatting to a few friends and getting out of my grump, it really is quite grump inducing when nothing has changed and the scale isn't moving, I decided I needed to go back and rethink things. Its funny how when you take a step back suddenly things become so obvious. I realised that most days I really was struggling to hit 1200 calories and for someone who has still got a long way to go, thats really not enough! Also quite a large percentage of my total calories were coming from carbs, so that was something else to think about.

Over this last week I've changed things up a bit, and I know that its only been a week but I can see things are moving in the right direction, I'm currently eating 1500 calories and I'm regularly just under my calorie limit of 1660, I'm also more aware of the carbs that I'm eating even though they're still too high.

So my advice to everyone out there who is ready to give up, keep going, keep moving forward and you will succeed!

SW: 269
CW: 209
CGW: 199

Welcome to my journey.

Before:

Weight: 269 lbs
BMI: 42.2

During

Weight 218lbs

BMI 34.1

51 pounds lighter

and a long way still to go 

Never give up bloggers!!

Holidays!

I've had a busy few weeks so really haven't had any time to update on here, my poor wee blog gets neglected more than anything else I own.

Anyways I went away to Aviemore which I personally think is one of the most beautiful places in the country! We did treks and trails and ate amazingly calorific food. It was an amazing week I love it up there I could stay for months and months.

Some photos :)

Anyways back to the point of this blog post there was a picture I took that I was actually quite surprised, I can see the weight loss starting to change my body shape :)

I know we've all seen this one before but I just wanted to put it there as a comparison, some day I'll learn how to do the split screen photo thing.

Anyhoos that's me for now, hope you're well blogland
xx

Size 18!!!

So today was a good day, I spent it in my favourite place in the whole world. It looks like this

Its called Eyemouth, and is very pretty :)

Anyway tomorrow I have an engagement party so went looking for something pretty to wear and discovered something quite amazing!! When I started this whole weight loss thing I was a size 22 and 269 pounds and I looked like this.

I'm on the left. 

This is today...

Currently 232 pounds and a size EIGHTEEN!!! So chuffed! I can't even remember the last time I was a size 18, I've been really down recently that I wasn't getting anywhere, I went into the shop and automatically picked up the size 22, I had no idea what size I even was! 

I'm a happy bunny this evening!!

Hope you're all well bloggers!

Adios!

Another forgotten blog post

I've not been on here for a long time and for that I apologise. Life for me is a bit of same old same old just now. I'm unemployed again looking for a new job hoping that something will come of all my searching.

A few things have happened in the last few months, first of which was the race for life, I have never run in my life I could never run, but I saw the poster up in the gym and thought I'd sign up. My sister signed up and did it with me, it was 5k and we finished in 45 minutes which I think is not bad :)

My back sign, number and medal. :) 

Me and my sister at the start of the race.

It was a great day, I raised nearly £100 and I cant wait for next years race, I will be up there ready to beat this years time :) 

Another thing that has been going on is my weight loss, I remember posting a while back and not feeling like it was going anywhere and that I couldn't do it anymore well things have changed a little bit. 

This is me on the 15th of January just after starting my whole weight loss mission seriously. At this stage I weighed 269 pounds (I'm on the left) 

This is me after the race for life on June 3rd, at that stage I weighed about 238. (I'm on the right) 

Any my weight loss ticker now looks like this :) 

I'm really pleased with how I have done and hopefully I will continue to lose in the same way :) My next goal is another stone and a half to 2 stone by the end of September/start of October, I'm hoping I hit that goal :)

Well I think that's about me for tonight's post, I hopefully wont leave it so long before posting again, hope you all enjoyed my little ramblings :) xx

Forgotten Blog.

I keep forgetting about this little blog I need to make more of an effort to keep it updated. My last post I'd just got my job and all was good, well 6 months later and I'm unemployed again boo! However I'm staying positive, I have an interview on Wednesday for a good job that I really want so here's hoping that something comes of it.  I did however buy myself a pretty new dress!! :)

Before I gave up on the blog I was talking about my weight loss attempt and I think I'm doing pretty well :) At my heaviest weight I was 269 pounds and I am currently 242 pounds :) I'm proud of how much I've lost and think I'm doing quite well but I still cant see much difference in my body which is really annoying. My sister came to see me today and got all excited about how much weight I'd lost which is funny cos she's only just seen me a couple of days ago its not all disappeared from then! Lol. Anyways I thought I'd add a couple of photos so I can hopefully see some difference. 

269 pounds

This was me at 255 pounds I'll need to take a more updated photo.

Hopefully I'll remember about this wee blog and keep updating it haha. 

xxx